fine be that way

what does it mean for us to fall, does it mean anything at all

okay seriously. I feel so tired and groggy from all the paperwork. I like paperwork, just not rushed though. but now got no choice rightttt cos finalize the script pretty late. ):

am at starbucks RC with Zidd. hahaha I think we work best when we're at different tables. she's pretty far away from me now and we're both diligently working. I hope I won't appear too much like a zombie tomorrow when we go meet Leonard at 11.

callsheets are a pain in the ass but yeah, I'll get by. AIYAH LAST SEM ALREADY NO POINT COMPLAINING. SOON ENOUGH EVERYTHING WILL BE OVER! Shoot starts next week and last day of shoot is on 10th. and let's hope we dont have to reshoot hahaha.

why does my iTunes shuffle to the weirdest songs.. and I refuse to change my songs hahaha.

for fuck's sake i need to fall asleep. i need to clear my mind from everything that's muddling up right now and at the rate things are going nothing good's coming out of anything. ):

I'm becoming insomniac and this isnt good D: I think i'm slowly transforming into a Rain... just, slightly more psychopath and subtle. I'm jaded and i dont feel fucking motivated i'm such a whiny brat arent i hahaha

ngeh..

Oh and so yan decides to be evil and put me to a challenge. I got banned from sugared drinks and deep-fried food, and having ice mountain to drink everyday feels weird. Well good weird actually, i feel accomplished lol no more kopi peng or red bull. And i cant eat subway on a daily basis cb so expensive. See until when this will last.. Well honestly this is huge cos you never... I repeat, NEVER, see me depriving myself from whatever i wanna eat yup. Except monetary issues, lol.

Okay i shall sing myself to sleep now typing on this puny keypad buttons way too much is starting to kill my thumbs.

Oh wait on the bright side, i'm pretty sure everything will turn out fine eventually and we'll get a summer and all the ten million locations can be found easily and all the leases can be signed on time and all the paperwork will be done by sunday and soon enough after like two weeks we start production i'll have adrian around on set (good god i feel so secure whenever i have adrian on set all the time lol) and before you know it it's post pro i get fucking stressed with my sound design crap again and voila. Summer & Its Rain is completed.

GRADUATION CEREMONY BITCHEZZZ WOOHOOOO!

And oh well it helps that school has reopened and there is one or two people that is kinda nice to look at hahaha okay fat stop, now.

I've been slacking the entire day. Nothing in particular that I need to do honestly. Until the final draft has been set and confirmed, there's nothing much I can do. For now I can only block out the idea that I'm shooting my I-fucking-BP in 2 weeks' time. Fuck.

I'm on a roll today. Initially had so many plans. Was supposed to go meet Josh and Marje (at josh's church -.- lol) to work on our twelfth draft but I figured what's the point, I'm not that much of help anyway with regards to the script. And I was supposed to meet the 2006 band exco I miss them so much but everyone's either gonna be late or won't be able to make it so we decided to postpone. And there's that Sathiya's Deepavali thing.

Decided to ditch all plans and stay home to bask in my own filth on my bed. Godddd I love my bed. I'm worried as hell that I'm slacking and not doing much work but what's there for me to doooooo D: well besides looking for more white people to cast but seriously.. ahhhhhh

Downloading great deal of albums, havent done this in so long! I got some by The Strokes, Sigur Ros, The Beach Boys (!!!!!!), Warsaw but Warsaw stuff all in windows format fuckkkk... and soundtrackssssss and whoah I'm still searching for more good stuff. Came across this band called Anal Cunt and immediately got reminded of Joshua... :S I'm looking for John Mayer argggghhh wanna get his discography.

FUCKKYEAHHHHHH BEACH BOYSSSSSS WOOHOO 

I'm really worried that Summer & Its Rain hasn't found cast to play our leads.. which is a pain in the ass cos it keeps me anxious and worried at all times. We're doing location recce tmr and I hope everything goes smoothly.. or something like that. I just dont want things fucked up and disorganized.

I've been listening to Zee Avi's Someone You Used to Know on repeat, it's so beautiful. I don't care I've been wasting my life away watching Family Guy now I shall continue to do so.

OMG so intense. E-mailed so many people for casting and I spent an entire day going to places with Adee and I came across this shop which sells sunglasses in bulks and they look really good (the kind that joshua likesss) and they're only selling for $4. FOUR FUCKING DOLLARS PER PAIR WOOHOOOO. If total number of cast I have is 40 means I only have to spend $160 on sunglasses. Sweeeeeet.

anyway i missed out on KT's jalan raya today kinda sad. i think atiqah (izzah) is also planning a 4 express jalan raya buttt i also cant go shit la look at how I've sold my soul to I-fucking-BP D:

My body's feeling the aches now I actually planned to sleep at 12 cos I was so fucking tired but I had work to do cb so now I'm done I'm going to sleep woohoo so long suckazzzzz

I'm at Starbucks RC with Zidd, just did my script breakdown and she's jotting down stuff on her jotter book about Talia and stuff. Hahahaha I still giggle at the thought of a Talia. Such a pretty name but awkward.. Okay don't ask why. And a jotter book. hahahaha how quaint.

I kinda miss sprawling on my bed for some weird reason but then again... it is good this way that I don't have my bed since I won't end up falling asleep or distracted, and I don't have my FRIENDS DVDs so I'll have very limited forms of entertainment. My mum has come to be pretty understanding *Likes*

I need to at least get my budgeting done by tonight.

LOL having the liberty to privatize my posts makes me happy. i'm starting to love lj hahaha now finally a public post. i have so much to do i dont know where to start i was thinking of budgeting but then again i feel too lazy to do it right now. maybe i'll do it later and then do it all late into the night. we're meeting michael kam tomorrow not really looking forward to that. i just wish leonard's around D:

anyway i just realized i have subconsciously become less vulgar these days good for me hmmm great progress in making my way to heaven! now i should try being a better daughter and sister. i feel like watching something right now maybe i shall make my way to the living room and watch some tv tonight. whoa havent watched tv for so long.

OHH I SHOULD WATCH FRIENDS K BYE